today

the day starts with very quite among me,aliaa and our friends..i already said 'im sorry to them'but i dont know if them forgive me or not.i already said im sorry to them but i dont know if they forgive me or not.doesnt matter cause if nabi muhammad can forgive islamic people that has do so much thing bigger thatn mine but they cant forgive me and cant accept me their friends anymore up to them.i dont like to force people to like and be friends with me.huh enough i dont wanna cry anymore,i dont wanna be sick thinking about this.even i sad so bad no one cares and know cause its between me and ALLAH.yes i admit i do a lot of things wrong and bad.but i admit jealousy among friends usually happen and they cant accept that .and you in mysituation you will know how it feel to have a person that you really love rapat dengan kawan you sendiri.argghhhhh i felt my brain and myheart is gonna explode.so this few days i will still be sad cause the way they treat me is not like i hope.so tonight i will calm myself alone..